According to the rumors check In to found out,Lady Gaga Opened Up About Battling Psychosis Five Years Ago….See More

She got vulnerable about the debilitating mental health condition amid her ‘Mayhem’ album release.

Amid her Mayhem album release, Lady Gaga is taking a look back at her toughest mental health battles. In a New York Times podcast interview published on March 8, the “Abracadabra” singer revealed she struggled with psychosis five years ago, and how her fiancé Michael Polansky supported her through the difficult time

Gaga detailed how she’d taken some time away to heal before releasing her latest pop album, sharing, “I had psychosis. I was not deeply in touch with reality for a while.” According to the National Institute of Mental Health, psychosis causes a person to lose some level of contact with reality, and they may have trouble figuring out what thoughts and perceptions are real or not.

It took me out of life in a big way, and after a lot of years of hard work I got myself back,” Gaga–who’s also shared her health struggles with fibromyalgia and PTSD–continued. The “Telephone” singer was able to fully move past the “hard time” of her mental health battle with a little help from her current fiancé.

It was actually really special when I met my partner because when I met Michael, I was in a much better place, but I remember him saying to me, pretty early on, ‘I know you could be a lot happier than you are,’” Gaga recalled. She said the comment struck a nerve, continuing, “It was really hard for me to hear him say that because I didn’t want him to think that of me. I wanted him to think I was like this happy, totally together person.”

Gaga, who previously credited Polansky for nudging her back into pop music, admitted that she found mental health “increasingly harder to talk about.” She explained, “I hate feeling defined by it. It felt like something I felt ashamed of. But I don’t think that we should feel ashamed if we go through times like that. I mostly just wish to say, it can get better. It did for me, and I’m grateful for that.”

Gaga also opened up about her relationship with Polansky, telling the New York Times, “From the moment that I met Michael, he had the most warm and kind disposition of maybe anyone that I had met in my whole life.”

The A Star Is Born actress shared more details about her relationship–as well as her sweetly personalized proposal–at Spotify’s Little Monster Press Conference. Gaga revealed that her giant diamond engagement ring–which is believed to be worth over $1 million–actually wasn’t the ring that the tech entrepreneur used to propose to her. Instead, she detailed the sweet moment when Polansky asked her how he should ask her to marry him in Mayhem’s “Blade of Grass.”

Blade of Grass’] is about when Michael proposed to me…we were in the backyard [and] he asked, ‘If I proposed to you one day, what am I supposed to do?’ and I said, ‘You can just get a blade of grass and wrap it around my finger’…and he did actually propose to me with these green bands,” Gaga shared, revealing that she wears a resin ring set with a few blades of grass in addition to her diamond sparkler.